Patience...I has none!

I have a great big lack of patience!!! Oh my goodness what was I thinking running out of my FSA and my happy pills before the end of the year. WHY?! Why would I do that!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?

I'm not gonna lie, a LOT of times my job is super boring...I mean, want to fall asleep sitting in my chair boring, but it has its moments of busssssy too. We have out little system, we do our thing, and inevitibly someone comes along and EFFS it all up. UGH. I just don't have the patience for this crap. I'm tired of picking up slack! GROW SOME BALLS.

I'm vague...get over it!


ANYWAY. I hate everything today, and I'd like TODAY, TOMORROW and MONDAY to be over. THANKKKS and have a lovely day~!

sometimes...

I wish I had more girl friends...or I should say SOME girlfriends, because I basically don't have any.

AND THEN I remember how dramafilled the bitches I used to be friends with were and WHY I'm not friends with them anymore. I just don't have the energy for that shit. I have enough of my own shit to deal with without dealing with them lying, talking shit and then kissing the persons ass to their face, ETC. Yeah no thanks.

This is why I had so many guy friends growing up.


I am very thankful for an awesome co-worker, who I think should have been my second sister!

And speaking of sister. My sister was here Halloween weekend. I LOVED me some Lucas. OMG he and Noah both are so damn smart it's unbelievable! Lucas says "Aunt Pawda!" Yep, I'm wrapped around his finger! The weekend was nice, minus the crazy bitch that tried to kill us on 277. (I really should have blogged about that after it happened, but now it makes me wanna vomit) I love my sissy! and my boys!

I'm really tired of being broke.

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God don't like Ugly? Paula don't like stupid!

The stupidity that surrounds me sometimes is AMAZING.

LORD HELP ME!!!

How do you stop a trainwreck?

How do you stop a trainwreck you KNOW is about to happen? Because I'd really like that to happen. My workplace is filled with dread, ie ME and E. I can't even go into what it's about (bc mostly I don't think I'm supposed to know) but it just plain SUCKS, and it's making being nice to people very very very hard. Thank God for coffee.

Oh and TV shows. In the past two weeks I've watched the entire first and second season of True Blood. I can safely say I'm obsessed with that show. I LOVE it! And thank god for Dexter, Fringe, One Tree Hill (which better not suck this season or I'll hurt someone) I guess I'm excited about Californication? Not really though lol.
I guess I'll just submerse myself in TV to get me through the madness...and like I said. COFFEE!


AND I would really like to plan TWO trips. One to ATL to see my lovely friend Lillian (and MAYBE her silly hubby) AND one to Chucktown to see my Jodi who has fallen off the face of the earth due to school and work. *sniffles* I miss my Joday!


Oh and my flickr account won't be pro after the 20th. I'm gonna cry. Ok, no I won't. I'll probably stop updating it with anything of substance anyway. BOO.

yeah I'm rambling.

SOAPBOX!

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED...




Comments aren't allowed on this post because I want to speak my mind:

So here goes...Yesterday was full of DRAMA! What the heck? I am sick of posting my opinions on Facebook and people getting their damn panties in a wad over it!

So apparently some people think their kids shouldn't watch the Obama speach today. Honestly I don't give a flying F! If you don't want your kid to see it that's fine. I have not taken away your right to do so, nor does it affect me one way or another if you do. Where I draw the line is you talking crap about the president and bringing some church he spoke at and trying to make that relate to his speach AT ALL. Seriously, does that have anything to do with it? NOPE. And furthermore... IF YOU ARE GOING TO BE IGNORANT AND TALK TRASH DO SO WITH PROPER ENGLISH! It makes you look 10 times more ignorant to say you "done read it" and talk about "there rights" AMAZING.

I am the least Political person EVER but I will tell you this much, Obama inherited the problems our Country is in, who cares about his beliefs he's doing his best, and lastly I firmly believe there is nothing wrong with him telling kids to STAY IN SCHOOL. (Which is basically what the speach says) So stop being ignorant backward ass rednecks! And if I say something on FB that makes you mad, just ignore it...or use the little *hide* feature! Thanks and have a lovely day!


*steps off soapbox*

Crazy dreams!!

I swear I have the craziest dreams! I wondered at first if it were me going off my medicine, but now I'm back on and STILL having them.

Last night I dreamed I got a boob job. Come on now...anyone that knows me knows if I got a boob job I would look like Pam Anderson. Well in recovery from my surgery...one of the incisions split and it was a bloody gooey mess. Rather gross. and my sister was there and then it was a whole bunch of random other crap. We were living in the Condo we lived in after my dad died. RANDOM. Just had to share the boob job part. *shakes head*


So glad today is flex day!

Need a little happy in my life right now!!!

In the past week I've found out that not ONE but TWO people may or may not have cancer. And My cousin Buffy's SWEET Mother in Law has passed away. The latter of these three things has hit me the hardest. I wanna go hug my Mama real tight and let her know I love her. As much as we butt heads I couldn't live without her. She is the reason I am who I am, and Lord help me I am JUST like her. Daisy Jr. Hardheaded, independent, and a little...no a LOT blunt. And I love it. :)

So I'd like a little happy news. Someone have a baby or get married or something so I'll have something to celebrate!! (And it won't be me THANK YOU VERY MUCH)

One thing that's keeping me laughing is reading Heather Armstrong's Blog. If you've never heard of Heather Google her! She's so awesome. I've read part of her book It Sucked, Then I Cried and I am DYING seriously DYING to read the whole thing (if someone has it and wants to loan it, or someone wants to just buy it for me I'll love you FOREVER) She's absolutely hilarious. Go check her out!

I think I'm allergic to money?

Or maybe I'm allergic to work? Either way...I've been sick so much since I've worked at the bank. Granted I was sick before, but not nearly as often. I'm sick again, I was just sick a month ago! What the heck?! I've got a sore throat and the left side of my neck is swollen! lame! I want to go lay in my bed, but guess what? I used up all my sick time. Yep, Migraines and being sick have depleted my lovely sick time! BAH.

Last night I was feeling frustrated: Bills piling up, being sick, having NO money and payday is 5 days away, the fact that there won't be any money left after payday...just EVERYTHING. I logged on to Facebook and there was a note posted on my newsfeed "PRAY FOR ME" and it was from my Youth Minister from High School. She found a lump in her breast and the Dr. is almost 99% sure it's cancer. I just bawled. How can I get so annoyed, frustrated, mad about my pity little life when this amazing woman, who has two children and a SWEET husband, may have cancer. I had to step back and think how trivial I was feeling that way when I could have it SO much worse. I've pledged to myself that everytime I start to complain, or feel sorry for myself about something that CAN be fixed, I have to just remind myself of how good I do have it!

I'm not very religious, I don't go to church, and I know some of you don't either, but please pray for her and her family or at least keep them in your thoughts. She is very dear to my heart and I would appreciate it.

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